Unfiltered Thoughts

Can you see me or are you too wrapped up in your head? Can you hear me? You like the sound of your voice, a bit too much, I think. Are you blind?  Or maybe you just don't give a shit? I'm right here, in front of you. Why can't you see me? Why does talking to you feel like shouting into the void? You're so frustrating! I'm not my disease, it's a part of who I am  but for fuck's sake, there's a  lot more to me that just this fucking mental illness! Why can't you see that? As a whole, I'm more than just the fucking sum of my parts! You don't label cancer patients cancerous, why do you define me by my depression?  I am a work of art, a fucking masterpiece, why can't you see that? I wish you'd take off those rose tinted glasses and take a fucking good look at me. I'm not your ex, she left, I'm here. Why can't you see that I AM HERE. She's gone, let her go! You make such a big deal about how I can't trust you, how ...

Petty is as petty does. I'm always wishing people well, praying they are happy. When you genuinely care about someone you want everything to go well for them, regardless of whether or not they're in your life. I'm going to be petty for a moment and wish them all misery. I'll repent later. It hurts to let go of people who I thought would be around forever. I'm nothing like Sam Smith, I goodbyes are difficult. I'm clingy asf, and letting go, is an extreme sport. Here's to everyone  who has walked away or I walked away from! [Him] I hope you miss me. I hope you never move on from me, ever! I hope you think of me often. [Her] I hope you never find someone who loves you like I did. I don't know if you'll find a friend more true than I was. I poured out my life for you and you took it all for granted. I pray karma does her worst. I hope you remember me when you need a friend, you'll want to pick up the phone and call but you won't. ...