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Fear of intimacy or what's really wrong with me or why you shouldn't be in love with me

I spent this morning thinking about all the people I can't seem to let go of. The ones I need to cut off, people I no longer speak to on a regular basis but am still hung up on and that one guy I've reconciled that I'll always love. My soul is like a graveyard of dead relationships, people long gone. I spent the better part of this evening looking a pictures of an almost love, figured it's time to burn this bridge but I can't, I feel physically ill now. I'm nauseous, my chest hurts, I can't seem to let go off the skeletons of what could've been. I keep thinking, I don't want it, not in this form, certainly not any time soon, still I'm incapable of thoughts of closure.  The Script's good in goodbye  reduces me to tears every single time I get in my feelings.  No matter how it falls apart There's an "art" in breaking hearts But there's no fair in farewell I haven't learned how to let go yet, so I'm goin...
He put his hand in mine It was cute First date, progress I'm over it first dates, cute things Can we move past the talking stage I want to find home I'm the girl who writes love poems sad poems Dear boy, please love me Dear boy, fuck you! Mommy please love me, daddy please love me Love poems, sad poems Somebody, please love me Love  me I love me Boy, mommy, daddy Do you hear me? I said I love me I AM HOME x