I tell him my favourite color is black, like my soul. He chuckles disbelieving Says no I allow it. I'm too happy ignoring the trauma that's brewing underneath He lets me sleep in his bed and cuddled up with him because I am always cold, always freezing I hold him close and hear my heart open and almost weep Deep breaths, it's going to be okay, it will be alright He let me fall in love with him and he pulled the rug from beneath me Like jumping into a pool thinking there's water only to fall on shards of broken glass, The pool is empty. I'm not sure I'm the type of girl that will ever find love, maybe I am too broken Mommy left, daddy drank and I've been searching for home ever since My secret dream is to be have a happy home I saw that home in you, so don't ask me why I can't just walk away…. I know better than to hang around waiting for you to be ready But The thought of leaving you physically hurts, My chest burn...